It is very funny there is one period my back hurts till hell. Go see doctor. And she say I am fine. Everytime I fall sick so serious. MO say I am fine, Polyclinic doctor say I am fine. SAF treat it like nothing.

My own officer, downgrade just after a few reservist. Section still functioning? How come he is not kick out? Reservist to prepare for war? Joke.

I am very dumb. Dumb till a point that I recommend people use external mobile phone battery plus those computer USB fan in a tanker. Everyone was so shock. Everyone was looking for AA battery for their AA Battery power fan and complain battery are so heavy. It such a simple things only dumb people can think off.

So good life. Most of the people are fitter than me. Every year they got same position. Sit in Tanker or car. Relax. They know what to prepare. Because every year they are the same. Some of the new one who just enter, just get to sit car. So shiok. Do I got any award? None at all. How come people got 5 year what medal, and I am in the 9th year, nothing?

Some are physically very fit. So what they fail IPPT. It is not whether you pass IPPT that determine how fit you are. I still Pes A. My family got so many problems. Sleep not enough. Eat not enough. Yet I manage to try and run to the best I can in BMT. So? When you fall sick, everyone treat you like dirt.

There is one reservist, I got fever. My officer say because of you fall sick, this exercise is affected. So how  you prepare for war when just one is being shot down, and all the army can't function? I am that important? Than how come I got no award?

People eat until so healthy. Eat until so fat. Yet they do not try.

I ask my officer there is a small box inside the SBO. New packing list never put. Go what technical mob? Fight what war? Dont joke PM Lee, not your fault, but dont joke when you do not know what is going on. Joke does not mean real joke. My own officer cant even answer my question. So is spec. I am not trying to be perfect. Is those guys trying to be perfect with me first, I show you what is perfect.

But is useless. Running faster than people does not prove anything even without sleep or food. Falling sick because the brain auto dis function after so many unfairness does not give you the right to fall sick. Doctor almost kill me. Sack those guys? I still have heat exhaustion problem. It ever since BMT. But at least I try. Those people with good life, eat until so fat, try before? Even there is only one, I have an excuse to say, cos everyone is trying to be perfect. Why cant I?

And the best part is the appointment list, when it is out, the guy is there, my spec prefer to put me to it. Wake up earlier, walk more. Anything I get? Work hard equal reward? Joke. During NSF days, everytime attach to RSM for every single operations. What did I get? My mum still working? If I am so important, clearance so high, shouldnt I got a good job, shake leg, do nothing, and my mum can retire? Why, because files in Tampines HDB pile so high, Tan Kok Lam can read newspaper during office hours and etc.

Joke.

So who is perfectionist? I try to be easy going, people try hard on me. Of course I will turn perfectionist. How come Mr Koh at Lee Li Lian area pick up leaves, say it is very important, and HDB is not perfect? Dont try to compare? You telling me leaves more important than crack? What am I comparing to? I am confuse again.

Next reservist still do duty at OPS room? Joke. When I was fit, everyone was lying on bed, I went for exercise be it NSF or reservist. When I was weak, cant downgrade, still do ops room duty with those who downgrade? So what they downgrade, they are much fitter. Still do duty in OPS room, I should rest. Why? Why is everyone resting when I got the most xiong job when they feel I am very fit? Those people are much more stronger in every aspect. Taller, fatter, much more bigger size. So what they fail IPPT. Who will you ask to fight a American soldier? Doctor, spec and officer must be blind. They do not know who is real fit. Even rashes say I am fine. Is my lungs x ray report okay?

Some people maintain Pes A or B thru out. Maintain a good record for show. But what he do? Maintain mess, sit in A or B vehicle, size so big, got event no need take part, guard duty seldom see. On top Cantonese people side below Cantonese people? Sorry. It about being fair regardless who, Malaysian I also help. Indian I also help. It that particular person and that particular situation on what you should do?

So the spec, people pass things by hand to him, he like so scared to touch your hands. Scared of disease? Still can be spec? Still can go war? How is HR or psycho test being efficient?

If everything is not true, take lie detector test.